Monday, 28 February 2011

Monday 28th February

8pm. Jane has slept most of today but she did have a little porridge for breakfast and some custard at lunchtime. The morning wash pretty much wears her out. She was awake when the doctors came around and told them that she had just about had enough - she wasn't specific but I don't think she was just referring to the morning wash routine.

I spoke with the docs afterwards and we agreed that we are all witnessing a steady decline but that none can predict its likely duration. In Leo's words "it's like her body's just not strong enough to bare her soul any more".

I didn't go to work at all day - I felt the need to spend time with Jane. She is very peaceful and relatively pain free except when she is moved.

We continue to get the most wonderful messages of support and cards too. I relay all messages to Jane - even if she doesn't open her eyes I know that she absorbs them - something like osmosis.

My reading matter has changed. I have finished the Montaigne biography and returned to an old friend - Patrick Leigh Fermor - "Mani". Jacquee M sent me "A Time of Gifts" years ago and I have loved him ever since.

The picture was taken on Christmas morning in 2006; it's absolutely Jane.

God bless you.

7 comments:

The Sociable Homeschooler said...

Yes, the photo is absolutely Jane. I can imagine Jane is fed up with not being at home, I would be too. She is blessed to have you and the children with her all the time, familiar and beloved faces. Malia commented last year when we were with Mummy, "you know exactly what she wants," and you know exactly what Jane wants. Love, love and more love. You can do no more than that.
We are praying for you all the time, for peace, for comfort and for strength.
Love as always,
Vivienne, Larry and the children.xxx

Unknown said...

Jane loves that scarf. Constant love from Family Rogers xxxxx

Sue said...

I wait for your blog each evening Peter. Thank you for being so selfless in sharing whatever time there is left. Sleep peacefully dearest Jane. God Bless you all. Love Sue and Trevor and family.

JanfromThan said...

We can all understand Jane's weariness I think. Bless her very loving heart and soul and bless you Peter, Lydia and Leo. xxxx

Man In The Arena said...

And a mighty soul it has and continues to be

Ken said...

Please give Jane's hand a gentle squeeze from us and give her our love.
love to you all Jenny, Ken, Richard and Katie xxxx

Unknown said...

Thank you Peter for being such a wonderful man, in sitting, thinking, watching, waiting and sharing your moments with Jane with us. You must be surrounded by family and friends, from near and far, but there are so many more who wish they were able to be there for you all. Take a small piece of comfort knowing that you are in our thoughts and prayers and I can only hope every man can show love, compassion and patience such as you have. My mom is coming to town today to have lunch with me today. I thought Jane would like that. Wishing you nothing but the fondest of memories..Xoxox Holly Chupick